"As for me and my household, we will serve the LORD."
Joshua 24: 15

July 19, 2009

"Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the LORD has been good to you. Psalm 116:7

I find myself with mixed emotions this evening as I prepare for surgery tomorrow morning. I bounce back and forth between excitement and apprehension, dread and relief, and peace and paranoia!!! Reconstruction has been my goal! It's been looming in the distance as a finish line of sorts for the past year. And now I'm here...within 12 hours of the procedure. I'm surrounded by the faithfulness of God. Every breath I take is evidence of His great mercy and grace! Yet it's still a tug of war of faith for me tonight, trusting in Him or looking at circumstances and getting afraid. I have to admit it was easier trusting Him a year ago when my flesh was too weak from Chemo to fight me. Now my mind won't shut off playing so many different BAD scenarios. So I MUST refocus...look straight at Him...and run across this finish line with all that I am...for His glory!

Surgery Info:
I will be having surgery at Hillcrest at 8:00am Monday July 20th. They will be removing my left breast and then reconstructing both breast using implants and skin/muscle from my back. I will be in the hospital for 3-5 days and then will be home recovering for the next 4-6 weeks. Thank you for your prayers and support!

A Lesson in Perseverance

Of course a bigger hammer would have helped too!